2nd Ultrasound!

Having a miscarriage the first time around has really messed with my head. I am a lot more cautious and afraid of disappointment and heartbreak. So I was nervous as heck at my ultrasound this morning. Great news! Both baby crocodiles are right on track and measuring at 7 weeks. Baby A's heart rate was 138, and Baby B was at 142. Next ultrasound is May 1st.

I really need to remind myself that God is in control, and He has never disappointed me. He loves me, and He is watching out for my baby crocodiles.

God is good!!!!

Third Beta...

Hey guys! I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while...My 6 year old niece and 3 year old nephew are visiting with us for the week for Spring Break. I'm very tired! I have learned that no matter what time they go to bed, they always wake up at the doopy crack of dawn...(7-7:30am). We have had a lot of fun swimming, going to the park, and tonight, we are going to Ikea for meatballs and play at Small Land.

So, I started spotting last weekend between my second and third beta (which was Monday). It really freaked the heck out of me. Having a miscarriage really makes you paranoid. So when the nurse called to tell me Monday my beta was 5000-something, I was really shocked. And thankful. I went for a early ultrasound on Wednesday. Twins!!!!! And we saw one fetal pole....Always have faith in God...He will surprise you!

Next ultrasound Wed., April 18th. We are praying soo hard for strong, healthy baby crocodiles, and a healthy pregnancy. God is soo good!!!

2nd Beta is....

...1592!!!

It almost doubled in 48 hours, but not quite. My DR is not concerned, and he wants me to come in Monday for the last one. I have been doing some research on hcg beta doubling time, and as long as it doubles in at least 76 hours, you should be doing well. I don't think I will be doing anymore "research" on the web anytime soon. It just put me in a sour and negative mood from reading all of the stories of the bad things that can happen with infertility and miscarriage. I understand the purpose of message boards...to educate and meet others going thru this journey. Lately, it just puts a lot of  "what-ifs" into my mind...what if this happens? what does this cramp mean? is this normal? Ok, I'm done.

Moral of the story: I am going to avoid looking up stuff on the internet. I am going to trust God completely. I am going to pray that our baby crocodile(s) continue to grow healthy and strong. I am going to be positive (why am I so emotional today anyways?). God is soo good.

1st Beta...

Since, we aren't telling anyone that we know, I can tell you guys. :) My first beta today was...

851!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omgosh! God is soo good!

Thank you for praying for us!!

Next beta is on Friday.

Still Waiting...

...on my 1st beta test. It's on Wednesday. I just want to know already! I have been POASing, & the line keeps getting darker. God is good! We broke the news to our families and friends that if we are blessed with a healthy pregnancy this time, we aren't telling anyone until the second trimester (which I think would be around Memorial Day). It was sooo difficult to 'untell' everyone that had been told we were pregnant the first time after we had the miscarriage. My mother-in-law, God bless her, told just about everyone she knew, seriously. I explained to her why we aren't telling her, and she said she understood. We have a strained relationship (long story), so I try to avoid seeing her, because I just really don't want stress and conflict in my life. My DH can deal with her. :) If you leave me a message, I will be sure to pray for you in whatever you are facing. :)

Still Positive!

The line is still positive and darker. God is soo good!

POAS.

I broke down and bought some First Response Early Result pregnancy tests...(they were on sale at CVS, lol). Taking those things can really mess with your head during the 2WW until my first beta test (which is March 28th).

I am 4dp5dt. I let my curiosity get the best of me today, so I took one of the tests...it was positive!!! There is a definite, light, solid line showing positive. I still have a picture of the positive line from my cycle in December, and they look just the same. I am really shocked...I wasn't sure if I could get a positive test this early. What a blessing from God!!!

Thank you God for soo much for the hope you have given us, and continue to give us. Prayer works!!!!