After our first IVF cycle & on my husband's birthday, we were blessed with a positive result!!! It was such a blessing from God. We were ecstatic! We had a ultrasound at around 6.5 weeks. Our baby crocodile had a little beating heart. Soo cool. In December, we went back at 9 weeks for an ultrasound...no heartbeat. There are no words for how devestated we were. We went for D&C a week later.
We are still healing from the miscarriage. It is devestating. Part of the reason I started this blog today is because I was worrying if it was going to happen again with our frozen embryo transfer on Friday. I was in tears earlier. We are trusting in God, & trying to give our worries over to Him. He knows the desires for a baby of our very own, and we believe He has something awesome in store for us. I also worry that God has something else in mind for us, other than having a successful pregnancy of our own...is that awful and selfish?
It sucks when you have to question the Man. I've been married for 9 years and TTC for over 5 years...MC in 2010...and now, lost one of my sons and my other one is fighting for his life. Am I that undeserving of his blessings?? **sighs**
ReplyDeleteI was told once...We tend to think that God is not listening to our prayers when we don't get the answer we want. We fail to recognize that he is giving us the answer that is best for us.
ReplyDeleteThat's a really hard concept for me to grasp. But I do think God has something really awesome in store for us!!!!
That's true...everything happens for a reason.
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